I can't believe I actually cried over what you said to the middle person. I didnt want you to give in. Im not asking you to give in. All I am asking for is, WHY CANT YOU UNDERSTAND THAT I GOT NO PROBLEM WITH YOU? WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I GOT PROBLEM WITH YOU? WHAT ARE YOU THINKING SERIOUSLY? I'm not asking you to give in. In fact, there is nothing for you or for me to give in. I am so darn disappointed. For your info, this is the highest disappointment I have ever experienced.

3 main questions is all I ask. Nothing more. You even dare to say or imply that I was the only person who cant get along with you. WHATTHEHELL was that supposed to mean? 1 whole week. 1 whole week I was being normal in class. & you thought I wasnt. WHY? Im so sorry for repeating this to my readers. But WHY? Is it because, I didnt gave you the same treatment I gave to everyone? Is it because I didnt talk to you as much as you want me to? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THIS WAY? Have you done too much PBL? That's why you're thinking too deep over something? Well, if you are, then, let me tell you, you got to look at things on the surface sometimes.

I know, you may not like the class you are in now. Coz it's not like your previous class. I'm sorry, darling, but you have got to learn to adapt to changes. Do you think that all the classes you are in are going to be the same like the previous one? Do you think this class is the same as my previous class? Well, N-O, NO! But at least, I am learning and beginning to adapt to the environment of this class. I'm sure you thought certain people dont deserve the grades that they get. But, hey, that is not up to us. It has never been up to us in the first place. The faci decides all those. All you and everyone can do is just do their part as a team member and work hard.

Don't think about yourself all the time. Sometimes, I can only think of 1 word to describe you:- EGO. You can notice other people's faults. But you can't notice your own. I think that is why, you notice me behaving differently (which I dont think I am), but have you ever think who is behaving more differently?

That is what the middle person is trying to make you see. All he wants is peace between both of us. I want peace between both of us. But it doesnt seem that you want the same thing. I insisted that I got no problem with you. But you insist otherwise. What else can i say? Say something which is not true? Tell you that, "Yes, I got problem with you." when I actually, really, seriously, frankly, honestly, DON'T. I just want to know what you're thinking. I've had enough of this kind of thing. I pity the middle person. He is so innocent, but yet, he gets all the "thrashing". If you dont think of me, dont pity me, it's ok. I also dun mind. But at least, pity the middle person. Trust the middle person. The middle person isnt siding with anyone. As far as I know, he justify for the person whom he thinks is right.

How can you think that I behave differently because I like you? Puh-leez... Firstly, you know what kind of state I am in. So how can I fall in love? And even if I do, (No offence!), but it wouldnt be you, because I think I found a few people who is much better than you, in the sense that, they can think rationally.
What makes me disappointed is that you are not the person I expected you to be. I thought you are someone whom I can trust (which I actually did), who can give and take, who is rational enough to think. But all I see from you is someone who is EGO and IRRATIONAL. I hope you can prove me wrong. I really hope you do.

I know you're tired of this. Well, I am tired of this too. That is why I want to settle this as soon as possible, but again, I felt that you dont seem interested. I am stressed over someone who dont deserve my stress. I cried over someone who dont deserve my tears. Dont say that I didnt try to understand you, coz I did. I dont know what else you want from me. It's not me if I were to just give up and leave things halfway. It's not me if I were to just go up to you and scream and shout and lecture you, coz I am a very patient person. The way you are now, just makes me want to give up. The way you behave now, you're just testing my patience. But I am holding on because I dont want to make things worse. Im not saying that all this is your fault, coz I believe it is neither yours nor mine. All I want to know is, What Are You Thinking?

If you're reading, I'm sorry if I ever made you feel hurt, in any of my entries here, or when I speak to you. Everyone's patience has a limit, you need to know that. Everyone needs to learn to adapt to changes in life, you remember that. Accept the person for who he/she is & Know that there is always someone who has bigger problems than yours. Think it through.
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I think my readers will be very bored reading about this. So, anyways, just some updates, SA ALC Bonding Session was good. Climbing that high elements were scary, but fun. I think my legs are aching now. Hehehe. Oh, & I think I want to have another hair cut. Or rather, trim my hair. I dont know what becoming of my hair now. Seem to suck more than ever. Hahaha... So, should I go to a salon, or just the normal shop that I go to? Mum will surely say, just go to the normal shop. It'll cost you 7 bucks only. But, the daring me, feel like taking a challenge. Why not, Toni&Guy again? Or maybe Kimage this time? Hahaha... Oh wells, I'll talk about this when I have the money. At this moment, I need to save up. Haiz...

Till next time`Adios.