Why must it happen to me again arh? Why is it so difficult for people to understand me? Ok, maybe NOT Literally understand me, but what's so difficult about me, that people always misinterpret my words? Is my English to difficult to understand? Or does the problem lie in them?

Not that I want to bother myself about this, but, I am so sick of it. People always misinterpret my jokes to be something serious and misunderstood something serious to be a joke. This is NOT funny ok... & this isnt the 1st time that this is happening. I actually encountered this last semester too. Seriously, is it hard for you people to distinguish between my sarcasm and my serious-ness? I mean, what can I do about it? Change myself coz' the problem does lie with me after all? Must I tell you that I am being sarcastic everytime I'm being sarcastic so that you guys will not blame me? Must I inform you that I am in a PMS mode everytime I am in that mode, so that you guys will not provoke me or make me angry?

Maybe I should just blame it on Time. After all its only the 2nd week. Not many people understand me, or the way I do my work, or the way I talk. Fine... But, why put the blame on me? Why never think about your fault? Why never think that you guys read too much in between the lines? Too much PBL is it? Why never feel that you guys are just being too sensitive? Why never feel that you people are taking things to heart? Why is it that you guys straightaway put the blame on me when you people dont know what type of person I am? You dont even bother to find out, and continue to make assumptions - assumptions which are always putting you guys on the right path, while ME, on the wrong one. The question playing on my mind, "Should I change for the better, so that these people will not think they way they're thinking right now?"
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Ok, you might be wondering why I'm speaking or writing this entry this way. I'm just doing some self-reflection. Self-reflection on why people always judge me wrongly, when my intention of doing whatever I did is actually good. I dont want to tell the whole story here lah. But just some questions to keep you thinking. Is my sarcasm & serious-ness so difficult to distinguish? Is the way I talk harsh, until it hurts you?

This 'incident' makes my self-esteem low. Really. Sometimes I do feel like, I wish I was someone else. At least, he/she doesnt have to face this problem that I'm facing with other people. But wells, I know I cant be someone else. I am Me. This is Me. Thus, the song playing in my blog. It's a really old song, and after a looong time not listening to it, I teared listening to it again. Maybe, the song just suits what I'm experiencing right now.

"I am meant to be the way I am exactly....."

I got nothing else to say, really. I cant change people's mindset of me. Since whichever way I talk seems to be so wrong to others, I'll just be careful. Talk only at the right time, or else, don't talk at all. Not that Im giving up or running away from this problem, but I guess, one learn thru their mistakes. In the eyes of others, I made a mistake. So, I shall learn from it and improve myself, if not change. That's all I've got to say. Till next time.