Ok, I am seriously bored in class. Listening to team presentation. Hmm... Can I multi-task? It's for me to know, for you to find out. Hahaha... So, what else am I doing besides blogging & listening to team presentation? Play online games. Here, let me recommend you some. & This is purely for entertainment purposes.

Here's the links:-
1) http://www.armorgames.com/games/darkcut2_game.html
2) http://www.addictinggames.com/theimpossiblequiz.html?r=user_posted_link

The first game is sadistic. A little yeah... Where you act like one of those surgeons and treat a wounded person. The animation don't look gross, but when you come to think of it, it does. Hahaha... (Reminds me of CSI somehow)
The second one is kinda lame. I had so much laughter playing it. But wells, like I said, its purely for entertainment purposes. When you're bored, play this. Hahaha...

& since we're on the topic of games, I just got to know that my dear good friend in class, plays such girly games. Who is she?
KAI plays girly games!!
Hahaha... I recommended to her the sadistic game, but she ended up playing makeover games instead. Like, RITES... I so didn't expect her to play those games. Hahaha... There's nothing wrong in it lahh... DUH?! I'm just a bit shocked. & Kai, I thought that was your joke of the century. Hahaha...

Ok, Enterprise is OK today. Really Appreciate to have Aiman around. One smart ass... Hahaha... & today, we somehow "bullied" Tas, about her and her new BFF. BFF can mean 2 things u noe. Go figure... Hahaha... Anyways, a few people are sick 2day. Halim, Stephen, Kai, and I think Annie too. Haiz... People, take care of yourself lah! Dont spread the germs around the class. Hehehe...

& lesson finally ended. 4 more days to my vacation! Awesome! & I dont know what else to say. Till next time`Adios.

Being the random ME...

HISTORY JUST REPEATED ITSELF.

Go figure.

BEWARE! THIS ENTRY IS GOING TO BE FULL OF PICTURES! Hahahaha... That's my warning to you. Well, just the outline of what this entry is going to be . It's going to be about my 1st day of Hari Raya, then, my school life thus far... So, here goes.

My 1st day of Hari Raya was normal. I slept late the day b4, and woke up a little late. My mum woke me up a 730 but it was my sis who woke up. Haha... I guess I woke up half an hour later. Sheesh... It was just like any other Hari Raya. Celebrating it with my cousins. I think I said tis before. 3 cars 2 vans, yada yada... More than 10 houses. A lot of pictures were taken & I'll let the pictures do the talking.

I can't believe I actually cried over what you said to the middle person. I didnt want you to give in. Im not asking you to give in. All I am asking for is, WHY CANT YOU UNDERSTAND THAT I GOT NO PROBLEM WITH YOU? WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I GOT PROBLEM WITH YOU? WHAT ARE YOU THINKING SERIOUSLY? I'm not asking you to give in. In fact, there is nothing for you or for me to give in. I am so darn disappointed. For your info, this is the highest disappointment I have ever experienced.

3 main questions is all I ask. Nothing more. You even dare to say or imply that I was the only person who cant get along with you. WHATTHEHELL was that supposed to mean? 1 whole week. 1 whole week I was being normal in class. & you thought I wasnt. WHY? Im so sorry for repeating this to my readers. But WHY? Is it because, I didnt gave you the same treatment I gave to everyone? Is it because I didnt talk to you as much as you want me to? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THIS WAY? Have you done too much PBL? That's why you're thinking too deep over something? Well, if you are, then, let me tell you, you got to look at things on the surface sometimes.

I know, you may not like the class you are in now. Coz it's not like your previous class. I'm sorry, darling, but you have got to learn to adapt to changes. Do you think that all the classes you are in are going to be the same like the previous one? Do you think this class is the same as my previous class? Well, N-O, NO! But at least, I am learning and beginning to adapt to the environment of this class. I'm sure you thought certain people dont deserve the grades that they get. But, hey, that is not up to us. It has never been up to us in the first place. The faci decides all those. All you and everyone can do is just do their part as a team member and work hard.

Don't think about yourself all the time. Sometimes, I can only think of 1 word to describe you:- EGO. You can notice other people's faults. But you can't notice your own. I think that is why, you notice me behaving differently (which I dont think I am), but have you ever think who is behaving more differently?

That is what the middle person is trying to make you see. All he wants is peace between both of us. I want peace between both of us. But it doesnt seem that you want the same thing. I insisted that I got no problem with you. But you insist otherwise. What else can i say? Say something which is not true? Tell you that, "Yes, I got problem with you." when I actually, really, seriously, frankly, honestly, DON'T. I just want to know what you're thinking. I've had enough of this kind of thing. I pity the middle person. He is so innocent, but yet, he gets all the "thrashing". If you dont think of me, dont pity me, it's ok. I also dun mind. But at least, pity the middle person. Trust the middle person. The middle person isnt siding with anyone. As far as I know, he justify for the person whom he thinks is right.

How can you think that I behave differently because I like you? Puh-leez... Firstly, you know what kind of state I am in. So how can I fall in love? And even if I do, (No offence!), but it wouldnt be you, because I think I found a few people who is much better than you, in the sense that, they can think rationally.
What makes me disappointed is that you are not the person I expected you to be. I thought you are someone whom I can trust (which I actually did), who can give and take, who is rational enough to think. But all I see from you is someone who is EGO and IRRATIONAL. I hope you can prove me wrong. I really hope you do.

I know you're tired of this. Well, I am tired of this too. That is why I want to settle this as soon as possible, but again, I felt that you dont seem interested. I am stressed over someone who dont deserve my stress. I cried over someone who dont deserve my tears. Dont say that I didnt try to understand you, coz I did. I dont know what else you want from me. It's not me if I were to just give up and leave things halfway. It's not me if I were to just go up to you and scream and shout and lecture you, coz I am a very patient person. The way you are now, just makes me want to give up. The way you behave now, you're just testing my patience. But I am holding on because I dont want to make things worse. Im not saying that all this is your fault, coz I believe it is neither yours nor mine. All I want to know is, What Are You Thinking?

If you're reading, I'm sorry if I ever made you feel hurt, in any of my entries here, or when I speak to you. Everyone's patience has a limit, you need to know that. Everyone needs to learn to adapt to changes in life, you remember that. Accept the person for who he/she is & Know that there is always someone who has bigger problems than yours. Think it through.
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I think my readers will be very bored reading about this. So, anyways, just some updates, SA ALC Bonding Session was good. Climbing that high elements were scary, but fun. I think my legs are aching now. Hehehe. Oh, & I think I want to have another hair cut. Or rather, trim my hair. I dont know what becoming of my hair now. Seem to suck more than ever. Hahaha... So, should I go to a salon, or just the normal shop that I go to? Mum will surely say, just go to the normal shop. It'll cost you 7 bucks only. But, the daring me, feel like taking a challenge. Why not, Toni&Guy again? Or maybe Kimage this time? Hahaha... Oh wells, I'll talk about this when I have the money. At this moment, I need to save up. Haiz...

Till next time`Adios.

Which part of "I-got-NO-Problem-With-you" dont you understand? Why must you keep on thinking this way? Is it because you dont get the same kind of treatment from me? Is it because I dont give you much attention like how I give the rest of the guys? Is it because you think I am biased towards certain people? Why must you conclude things that way? Why cant you think positive for just a minute, and think thru, whether the real problem lies with you, or me?

You want me to be normal to you, just like b4. Am I not that way? How normal is my normal? & How normal is your normal? To me, my normal is the way I am in class now. That is normal. I dont know how you define your normal, coz I cant be more normal than how I am now. You said you wanted to follow me. But in the end, you didn't. WHATTHEHELL?! WHAT IS SERIOUSLY WRONG WITH YOU?! I asked another person along, and you dont seem happy, whereas, that person is your friend too! My intention is to just ask him to accompany me to take the train home. Is that so wrong?!

When will you ever come to your senses? You look at the fault of others, but never at the fault of yours. Well, for your info, I hate being emotionally unstable, and I hate being mentally tired. & what you are doing now, is making me feel the way I hate. REALLY. You asked whether I need counselling. Like, HELLO?! *knock*knock*. Who needs counselling now?! You are driving me crazy. I dont know what the hell is in your mind. I dont know what you're thinking. & yet, you insisted on wanting to know what I am thinking, which is practically Nothing related to you, coz I seriously got NO problem with you! Why cant you just see that?!

You dont even seem to bother if the person you like dont talk to you. Give you attitude. But, I am not even bearing any grudges against you, yet you make it sound like a big deal. I seriously dont understand you. I tried to understand. I tried. But I just failed. & at this point of time, I really want to resolve this issue, but it seems like you're not really interested. Fine! I shall leave it as it is, coz I cant be bothered with people like you anymore. Seriously. More of this, and I'll become crazy! Just allow me to lead my life the way I want it too. & you shall lead yours the way you want it to.

When will you ever come to your senses, my friend? When? When my patience has gone over its limits? I pity the middle person. Seriously. He tried. He really tried. It doesnt look like you're interested. Dont blame me if one day, you see me crying. Dont blame me if one day, I become quiet. Dont blame me if I'm of a different behaviour in class. You only got yourself to blame, coz you put me in this situation, and you're not letting me out of it. Good Luck in your life, my friend. Good luck.

Why do I feel so darn restricted nowadays? Or rather why do I feel like my freedom is being controlled? Is it really is? Or am I just being paranoid? I dont know. Well, what make me say this is because, my parents arent like last time. Or rather, last sem. They will not be like calling me like every hour asking me where I am or where I go. It's only this semester that they start doing that. Like, why?! What's wrong?! I'm 18. I'm of a legal age. Why are they so worried? Like, as if I wont come home.

I mean, I'm not angry at my parents for being this way, you know. It's just that I'm frustrated with the whole situation. They are like angry with me just because I didnt call to tell them where I am going. Ok, yea yea, they have the right to be angry, but, I didnt do this the last time and they seem ok with it. They'll just ask me where I went to, when I reach home. Why are they doing this now? Just because I didnt call, and they get worried, they seem like so angry with me. Haiz... I dont know what else 2 say? Mayb I shall just like go home from school each and every day, make them tired of looking at my face at home, then, they'll allow me to go out, is it? Does it work that way? Haiz...

I need my freedom with my friends. They make me go out with them straight away as soon as I reach home from school. Just to go where? Hari raya visits. Which part of T-I-R-E-D dont they understand? & then, they'll say, "If you go out with your friends, not tired. Go out with parents tired." Im not implying it dat way. Its juz dat, I dont really like it if I have to go home and then go out again. But if with friends, its like you go out with them straight after school, and den, go home. You get my point? Haish... Mum already cut my allowance. What are they going to do next? Set a curfew (which they have never set before)? I dont understand them. I seriously dont understand them NOW.

So, now, Dad just gave me an earful. Ok, not really an earful, but yeah, like half of it. You get what I mean? I dont know what to do now, you know. Maybe I should just like go home straight aft school, like someone with NO life, or, maybe I should just get on with my life, like nobody's business. Which one?! ARGH!!! Im so adarn frustrated that this is happening! =S
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Ok, so, enough about parents for a whike. Just now, when to Swensens at Northpoint to somehow celebrate Abd's and Heire's birthday. Hehe... It was FUN. Loads of laughter as per normal... Hahahaha.... Pictures were taken, but will upload it soon. I am so loving my class now. I will upload pictures of my class soon. =) =) Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HEIRE!! (shan't reveal his age here. hehe.) & HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, ABD!! Hahaha... =)
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I am seriously tired now. My eyes are closing as I am typing this. So, till next time. Adios, people!

"Andai dikau menghilang dan menyendiri,
ku terapung hilanglah panduan,
bak hujan di tengah hari,
panas menduri bumi....."
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Ok, don't bother about that. I was just feeling a little emo, in that sense. Actually, I'm in school. Cognitive is on, but problem statement is dry. Something about TIGHT yet 'beautiful' Argument. Hehe... -_-

I don't know why I'm blogging. I just feel so sian. Haiz... Oklah I got nothing more to say. Till later. =)

PS/ I love photoshop.
(just being random... hehe.)

Here's wishing all Muslims:-

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!
MOHON MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN!

Yesterday, went out to relive the old times. Wondering what I mean? Well, I went out with Nadiah, 'Ainul and Saiful, just like last sem. Hahaha... Went to break-fast with them & a few other PE.AK members. Went to Far East Plaza. It was ok lah, hanging out with them. As usual, we made it fun ourselves. Hahaha...
Maybe I'll just let a few pictures do the talking.

3rd week of school has been great! I didnt expect my class to be able to mingle so well with one another. I guess, its just the process of getting to know one another better. My grades seem to be hanging on the line. B is the best that I can do. I cant believe I only received 2 As, and that was in the first week! OMG! After that, it was straight Bs all the way. How can?? Haiz...

Enough about school for a while. Anyways, I have to thank my class for 2nd sem, W45G. Why? Coz they are the very first group to celebrate my birthday with me. It was a really great surprise. I didnt even think they would remember my birthday! Hahaha... So, yeah, I break my fast with them on Tuesday, which is actually yesterday, at Woodlands Checkpoint. Food there was superb. I really ate my fill and felt so bloated. & they actually bought donuts for me... & the birthday gift was nice. I like it. So, thank you people for that, too! My Million Thanks to W45G, and a special THANX to those who celebrated it with me - Kai, Tas, ZM, Stephen, Halim, Heire, Aiman, Maizurah, Esther and Ab. Did I miss out anyone? I hope not...

Having such great company just reminds me of 1st sem. The great company I have who never fail to make me laugh - Dee, 'Ainul, Sai, Rous, Aznee, Ramu, Vinod. These are the kecoh (noisy) people around in W25N. I miss those times. Loads...
Today's culture lesson was about Value. Made me think about the people I value...

This was just a fast collage I made when I was bored. These are the people I value most in my poly life. Some of the names are already mentioned, but yeahh, just to mention them again - Nadiah, 'Ainul, Rous, Sai, Natasha and Hadi.
Of course, there are a lot more... In secondary school, yada yada yada... But it would be never ending. So, yeahh...

Hmm, I dont know what else to say. I'm going to get back to my game then. To the names mentioned, Thanx. Know that you brighten up my day in one way or another. I really treasure you people a lot. =)
Till next time `Adios.