Why must it happen to me again arh? Why is it so difficult for people to understand me? Ok, maybe NOT Literally understand me, but what's so difficult about me, that people always misinterpret my words? Is my English to difficult to understand? Or does the problem lie in them?

Not that I want to bother myself about this, but, I am so sick of it. People always misinterpret my jokes to be something serious and misunderstood something serious to be a joke. This is NOT funny ok... & this isnt the 1st time that this is happening. I actually encountered this last semester too. Seriously, is it hard for you people to distinguish between my sarcasm and my serious-ness? I mean, what can I do about it? Change myself coz' the problem does lie with me after all? Must I tell you that I am being sarcastic everytime I'm being sarcastic so that you guys will not blame me? Must I inform you that I am in a PMS mode everytime I am in that mode, so that you guys will not provoke me or make me angry?

Maybe I should just blame it on Time. After all its only the 2nd week. Not many people understand me, or the way I do my work, or the way I talk. Fine... But, why put the blame on me? Why never think about your fault? Why never think that you guys read too much in between the lines? Too much PBL is it? Why never feel that you guys are just being too sensitive? Why never feel that you people are taking things to heart? Why is it that you guys straightaway put the blame on me when you people dont know what type of person I am? You dont even bother to find out, and continue to make assumptions - assumptions which are always putting you guys on the right path, while ME, on the wrong one. The question playing on my mind, "Should I change for the better, so that these people will not think they way they're thinking right now?"
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Ok, you might be wondering why I'm speaking or writing this entry this way. I'm just doing some self-reflection. Self-reflection on why people always judge me wrongly, when my intention of doing whatever I did is actually good. I dont want to tell the whole story here lah. But just some questions to keep you thinking. Is my sarcasm & serious-ness so difficult to distinguish? Is the way I talk harsh, until it hurts you?

This 'incident' makes my self-esteem low. Really. Sometimes I do feel like, I wish I was someone else. At least, he/she doesnt have to face this problem that I'm facing with other people. But wells, I know I cant be someone else. I am Me. This is Me. Thus, the song playing in my blog. It's a really old song, and after a looong time not listening to it, I teared listening to it again. Maybe, the song just suits what I'm experiencing right now.

"I am meant to be the way I am exactly....."

I got nothing else to say, really. I cant change people's mindset of me. Since whichever way I talk seems to be so wrong to others, I'll just be careful. Talk only at the right time, or else, don't talk at all. Not that Im giving up or running away from this problem, but I guess, one learn thru their mistakes. In the eyes of others, I made a mistake. So, I shall learn from it and improve myself, if not change. That's all I've got to say. Till next time.

11 days later,
Here I am posting something on my blog. Yes, I do realise it's been a looong time ever since I've updated. So, here goes okay...:-

First things first,
I changed my blogskin!!! and it's featuring YOURS TRULY! Hahaha... I figured that I really need to do something to my blog after it's been dead for some time. & I happen to have Adobe Photoshop. It's been a really long time ever since I played with that programme. So, I just wanted to try my hands on it. Really lost those skills for a while, but I hope to make a comeback. And there you are...
I just hope you guys like it. It's really a simple first attempt. Haha.. Comments appreciated. Thanx. =)

Next,
1 week of school has just past. Being in W45G has its pros & cons. First day of school was such a bore. A real bore. Everything was just so damn quiet. Everyone was shy to talk, and that leads on till the 2nd day. Just some info about my class. There's quite a number of malays, out of which there are around 6 malay guys and 2 malay gerls. I guess, they figured out I'm quite a talkative person. Hahaha... I was talking most of the time, be it to the faci or to the people around me. Can't blame me. I can't do work if it's too quiet. Make me feel pressurized. Hahaha...
Nowadays, the class has started talking. FINALLY!
Facis have been ok. Some are funny, some are demanding, but they're fine 2 me. So yeap...

& Lastly,
Going to school during fasting month really need to have loads of patience. Feel darn restricted. Haiz... But it's ok arh. At least it beats staying at home, fasting. Time seem to pass so slow. & it's the 10th Ramadan, but I already hear the Hari Raya songs playing on Ria. Really made me get into the mood, but still have to remember that I have to go to school. Shucks... & Talking about school, Mr. Vivian Balakrishnan is coming to my school on Mon to give a talk. So, that's just the updates I have about school.

& Those were the updates I have in my life so far. Hahaha... Today is the day where I'll be the only child - if you get what I mean. Kayy.. Till next time.

KAH-VIVOR RALLY AT SENTOSA was FUN but tiring! So, here's the story. Woke up as early as 6 am to get ready and make my way to Sentosa with Sis and Cuzzin. Had this competition thing going on. It's something like Amazing Race, where you have to travel to places to certain Checkpoints and get the clues. It's just that this happens in Sentosa and you can only travel by foot (dats y its 'KAH'), or by the free public transport provided at Sentosa.

Gosh... And when I thought it was easy, I was SO WRONG! The clues and the places were easy to find. Just that the travelling bit. The checkpoints were everywhere! and whats frustrating was that it was far away from each other, in the sense that one checkpoint was for example, at imbiah station, and the next was at the far end of siloso beach. The next one was at the far end of palawan beach, then the ranger station and back to the beach, and then to imbiah. Ok, it was something like that.

Goodness! It was a Sunday! There're like so many people, beach tram was always full, so we got no choice but to walk/run. We had to complete 12 clues before 12 pm. Oh wells, my team managed to finish 10 by 12. Heck... I believe that was an achievement. Sis team managed to complete all, but of course, one way or another they cheated. They took a taxi for the last few stops lar! Haiz...

However, I had my fair share of FUN! At least, I got to explore Sentosa from the start till the end. Took the buses which by now, I cant remember which line goes to where. And not to forget, my legs still hurt from excessive running/walking. 2 days oredi, and its still not okay. By now, you can guess how long I havent been exercising. Hehehe... Good form of exercise, but damn tiring...

After that, went to Vivo and ate at Chicken Rice Shop. Awesome! First time eating there. It was nice. Got to see Chicken Rice at another point of view. Hahaha... But yeah, it was nice... And then, journey home was dreadful. Took MRT and legs were aching, but there were no seats. Slept halfway thru in the train standing up. Hehe... Back home, continued to sleep. Hahaha... Dont say that I always sleep okay.. It was really tiring. =P

That is all for the 1st part of my entry. The 2nd part is where I found out I got into another class for Sem 2, which is W45G. Haiz... Didnt recognise anyone there at all... Looks like, I have to get back to square one. Making new friends, new environment. But I still miss the environment in W25N. The liveliness... Haiz... But anyways, we'll meet up.

Kayy... I'm tired. Not been doing anything lately. Rot at home. Laptop's become my new bestfriend. And Hari Raya Puasa is round the corner. So, here's to all Muslims:-

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadan!! =)

YESTERDAY WAS AWESOME!!! Hahaha... Went out to school for a while, and then, off to City Hall to meet Natasha. Goshh...We're so hungry. So, went to Bugis to eat at BK. Then, got bored. Decided to go town. On the way, met a guy from TONI&GUY. OMG!!!

Guy: Hi, i'm from TONI&GUY. Would you care for a free haircut?
Me: Erm... Free..
Guy: Yup. You'll get a hair wash, and maybe we'll trim your hair a bit and some consultation.
Me: Erm... Ok. Sure.

(Natasha, I cut the dialogue short for you!! Hahahaha....)

Kayy... Actually, something funny happen in between. I think, it was Natasha's dumb day. Hehehe... (Sorry. Just joking.)
Anyways, off we went to Toni&Guy Academy. We got a lot of time to spare. So, why not? Hahaha... I soo love my hair now. Hafta say, they really take a LOOOONG TIME to cut our hair. Mine took around 2&1/2 hours, while Natasha's around 3 hrs. Goshh... But, the after effect, AWESOME!
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Got the feeling of being pampered for a while. They wash your hair for you, trim it. Style it. & it's FREE. Haha... And that was my 1st time, going to a HairSalon. So, you know, that feeling... Whoa...
I have to repeat. I Love my hair now. Best haircut I've got so far. Hehe...


How's dat? Do I look any different? Hahaha... Ok, enough about my hair lar. Later kena accused of boasting about my hair. =S
So, yeap, after that, we went to town. Walked around, slacked at Skate Park awhile. Then, off to Heeren. All these while, we're just window shopping. No $$$ to spend also. And dat explains the new stuff on my wishlist, out of which, most of it are clothes. Hehehe... I swear, 100 bucks wont be enough. A teenager's needs & wants... Haiz... ;)

I feel like gg out again. But dont know where to. Hahaha... The boring part is always having to resist the temptation to spend. I dont know whats my plan for tomorrow. Sunday, off to Sentosa early in the morning. =)
Aites... Till Next Time.

I believe this blog and me have been going on hiatus for quite some time now. So, well, we're back! Let me see... It's the vacation. Some of the days, I've been going out with friends, while most of the days, its what I call, Rotting at Home. Hehehe...This is a long entry. Read it if you want to. Hehehe...

Went out with Natasha on Thursday... Watched movie, then Retail Therapy & Window shopping for us! Hahaha... Off to Bugis, and well, I guess, many shops are on our list oredi! It's just that I'm cash-strapped! And Mum just wont allow me to spend anymore $$$ on tops. Hehe... So, let me see, I have my eyes on bottoms then. Haha... Skinny jeans and all, but I still want more tops. Better start saving... Hehe...

Lets just say, my family's now financially challenged. Mum wouldnt allow me to spend her money, neither does she allow me to use my own money. I guess, these words mean a lot when you're under 21. "Your money is my money. My money is also my money." Hehe... Same goes for Dad. Mum's always been the one handling the money. Sometimes, I do get a bit irritated, by the fact that she somehow doesnt trust me in handling my own money, but when I come to think of it, if it's not for her, my bank acct wouldnt have so much money and I wouldnt have the luxury of spending a bit of the money on clothes. So, yeah, I'm still grateful to her. Thanks, Mum!

Enough about money for a while. It gives me a headache. So many things to buy, so little cash, which leads to putting the things on hold. So, yeap, moving on. Class BBQ was on Monday. I dont even noe if that can be considered a class bbq. Let me see, only a mere 5 ppl came. Hahaha... Great. Laugh at me. What good organizing skills I have. Shan't talk more about the organizing part lar. Aznee brought her boyfren along, and I asked my cuzzin along to help me out with the stuffs. Let the pictures do the talking.